Lifestyle
Sleep: I wake up at 5am and sleep at 10pm (generally, though recently I've moved to a new place so my schedule has been thrown off).
I use the Pomedero Timer for work. I find this helps a lot because what prevented me from starting a task was often the fear of when will it end, but knowing I just need to spend 25 minutes on it and then I can take a break and decide if I want to allocate another slot to it.
Generally, I'll play some music like rain falling or lo-fi to combat the ThE VOicES IN mY hEad, man, THE DemONs IN mY SOUl PrevenTInG me frOM rEAchinG mY truE poTenTiAL, dude. But I try my best not to listen to any music in general.
I avoid the news. I have a very local perspective on matters. I don't care about "wider society" or "saving others", I care about what goes on my neighbourhood. My knowledge on political matters hasn't been updated since some time before the 2024 US election, and anything I hear now usually is the result of people bringing it up with me in a conversation. This doesn't mean I don't have political opinons, but I recognise politics is way too complicated to say "if X happens, then we will achieve Y!", and it's not a game I want to play.
I don't watch porn, whether it be softcore, hardcore, straight, lesbian, hentai, etc. Growing up, the computer used to be in the living room and my mother was a housewife so I had no privacy to search up whatever. I believe porn, and especially hardcore porn, is unnatural, and if you haven't encountered porn growing up as a teenager then as an adult you will realise just how odd it is. Porn is cuckoldry. You are watching another man have sex with a woman, you chose this, you could've looked up photos of women, but you delibrately searched up a video of another man having sex with a woman. Now, that's not to say I haven't jerked off before, let's be real, but I've mostly used imagination and in some instances I would looked up softcore images of women. Nowadays, I soley use imagination and only if I recognise I'm feeling sexually fustrated (which is different to jerking off just because you can, as most guys do). It would be nice if I had a girlfriend, but relationships are more than just sex, and ultimately I'm not ready for a relationship. In terms of NoFap, if it works for you, great but I think sexual fustration is a concern
In terms of relationships, whether it be platonic, romantic or sexual, I can't connect with people. This is, I trust, not a clinical issue. I think I'm relatively normal, however, I think in our modern industrialised society it's difficult for people to bond because activities such as hunting, building, travelling through dangers, etc are no longer there to help people bond together. I don't know if this is a true, but I've heard how veterns have a brother-like bond with their fellow platoon members, and that makes sense given how dangerous their lives must've been when they served. Thousands of years ago, the experience of the avergae soldier today was relatively common for most able-bodied men in those times, when conscription and war was the norm. This is not to say we should bring back wars and conscription, but rather for me to explain why I don't think my inability to connect with people is a clinical issue, but rather a societial issue. Most people nowadays connect not out of an actual shared goal or challenge, but rather due to superficial interests such as a favourite Netflix show, or over music, or hanging out at the mall, etc. It's easy to see why, therefore, such relationships can break apart.
Despite being a smart fellow, I have never had a job. This is for two reasons, my big brain can print money without seeking employment instead monetising my skills as a freelancer, and second whenever I tried to get a part-time job (usually to alleviate the boredom and put my high academic grades to use) I would answer interview questions honestly. "Why do you want to work for us?" "Oh because the part-time nature of the role as well as salary range seems suitable for someone of my skill set" I know that's the "wrong" answer, I'm supposed to say "Oh boy oh boy oh skibidi I was inspired by your company's mission statement and attention to diversity!" but since money isn't an issue, I don't feel the need to suck up to them. Also, while I make little money in general from freelancing (just enough to cover my expenses), the rate per hour I charge is far more than what an employment job can pay me per hour. Let's just say, a full time job would need to pay me nearly £200k per year after taxes. Unfortunately, most full time jobs pay only £25k for a young fella like me, so I rather stick to freelancing and keep my expenses low.